Thursday, December 31, 2009
I have been real sick lately. I feel nauseous 24/7 but am also consantly hungry. If I dont eat when I am hungry I am a mess and if I do eat when I am hungry I am a mess so really I cant win either way. Its all good though. It means that I have a human growing inside me!!!! I was not sick like this with Owen that is for sure. Its amazing how one pregnancy differs from the next. I had a great pregnancy with Owen, not that this one is not great but I had no sickness with Owen. I was usually a little nauseous at night with O.
We are just so happy to be pregnant. Owen is going to be a wonderful big brother!!! We are not 100% sure we are going to find out. There is definitely a convenience factor with finding out but there is also that element of surprise to wait until the baby is born. So I really dont know what will happen.
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Every parent wants the best for their child. We certainly want what is best for Owen. He is so smart, articulate, creative, active, intelligent, kind and just a good kid. Not that Brian and I were not those things growing up. We certainly are a good mix of Owen. He has a little of me and a little of Brian.
Parenting is one of the hardest things you will ever do in your life. You are constantly second guessing yourself. Is what you are teaching them the right thing? Are you being a good example? Are you too hard on them? Are you not hard enough? Are you consistant? Its freaking crazy how much you second guess your self when you become a parent. I remember when I was pregnant wondering if I would be one of those parents that forgot to feed their child or left their child on the roof of the car like you leave your coffee cup on the roof (I have done that so many times...drinks that is; not child). I have had several questionable moments when it comes to parenting. I know in my heart that Brian and I are doing a decent job with our boy! He is turing out pretty good. But its little hiccups along the way that make me wonder.
Brian and I show Owen love and affection, teach him to trust and we give him everything we have. I think that is what being a parent is about.
We are starting to talk about extending our family. We know Owen is ready as he talks about it all the time. His little friends have siblings. I feel bad for him that we havent done it sooner but its a big deal to bring another human being into this world. There is always something happening or a question whether its a good time. I guess there is no perfect time...now is as good as any. We will see!!!
So I guess in the end what I am saying is that as you grow up you look up to your parents, despise your parents, think they arent so bad then parent like your parents. Its funny how you go throught your adolescence saying "I will never be like my parents" and in the end you are just like them. Thanks mom and dad for showing me the way and instilling the values I am passing on to my child(ren).
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Here is the original costume we got:
We got to talk him into wearing the partial costume while Brian went out to get another costumer. There was NOTHING left two days before. After a huge melt down this is what we ended up with.
We totally understood that in Owen's life this is the end of the world. Imagine for weeks you are excited to wear a skeleton costume and you tell all your new friends you are wearing a skeleton costume but dont get to...END OF THE WORLD!!!!
What a good sport he was. We told him that he was special. He got to wear part of his costume to the parade and the rest was a surprise for school the next day. He went with it.
He actually got to mix and match two different costumes which normally would not happen. So what could have been a nightmare turned out to be not so bad. Here is the end result...what he is, I have no idea.
What ever it was he loved it. I am sure he will be wearing the mask for a long time! He really had a great time trick-or-treating. We got throught half the neighborhood and he was done. He turned into a zombie...he was just going door to door saying what he was supposed to until he said "IM DONE, can you carry me home!". Brian picked him up, put him on his shoulders and carried him home. Man this boy is spoiled!
Once we got home we sifed through his candy. Then he finally realized we had candy to give away. So we all went to sit on the front porch and give out the rest of what we had in our basket (we opened it a week ago to dig in!!!). Owen decided his job was to hand it out. It was gone in five minutes. Some of the kids really made out! It doesnt matter because in the end HE HAD FUN!!!
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Our family loves fall (with or without foliage). It is our favorite time of year for many reasons...first and foremost HALLOWEEN (and my birthday hehe). I remember when I was young, Halloween was like (or should have been) a holiday to me. I never understood why we had to go to school on Halloween. I have a mini-me (boy version). Owen loves Halloween. Today he went on a field trip to a farm where he will get a pumpkin and apples. I am sad I didnt get to go on this one...I am sure there will be others. He is all excited to be a skeleton, I am excited to get him his costume and paint his face! He will be the coolest looking skeleton there is. Then of course there is our local Halloween parade and party at the library...I will be taking out my camera for that one! I am sure there will be tons of cute kids running around!
This is also the time of year that we start having fires. This is Brian's favorite thing to do. We love to be in the house on a cold day with a fire in the fire place, and soup brewing in the crock pot. Its the definition of fall for us. Last year I would have thrown baking a cake into the mix but this year we are on a health kick so cake will not had!
And out come the winter clothes...one of the best parts of living in New England is the change of seasons or should I say change of wardrobe. I love taking out the boots and sweaters for fall. Of course I love to buy new ones too but its just exciting to put on a big cozy sweater especially when you haven't seen it in months!
So all in all we are really excited that fall is here...great things are happening for us.
Here are some pics:
My sweet boy:
Sid the pumpkin:
Notice how there are wayyy more pics of Sid than my child...its nearly impossible to get a pic of this kid!!!
Monday, September 28, 2009
For the first time in Owens life he saw me cry today. This was not an easy thing for him to see but I explained to him that mommies and daddies get sad and that it is ok. Sadness is an emotion that everyone has from time to time. Its normal. It didnt make it easy for him.
My grandmother suffered for a long time. She lost her big toe several years ago and since then she has had nothing but suffering. Last year she lost her leg and that was hard on her. Imagine yourself today and then think about you at the age of 78 or 79 losing your leg. I could not imagine. Yet, she stayed strong and lived life.
Today I have regret. I regret not calling more often or visiting enough. I know that everyone says you did what you could and to be honest, I do not believe I did. The fact is that I could have taken a little more time to stop what I was doing and see her. In time that will fade and I will have joy and comfort when I think about her and my other grandmothers. Right now I have hurt and regret.
I am not a public person. I am not one to put my feelings out there for everyone to know. I dont feel like this is doing that. I just want everyone to know how much I truely loved my grandmother and that she and my other grandmothers will always be in my heart. I think about them everyday!
This whole experience has taught me to say what I think and feel. I hear this alot from people but I am taking this whole situation and making the best of it. I am going to learn from my mistakes and flaws!
In loving memory of my grandmother:
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Thursday, August 13, 2009
We had Owens Bday party on that Saturday. It was great for him...Thank you to everyone who came!!!
The following day (Sunday) we had planned to go to Misquamicut for the day, stay in Mystic then do the aquarium the next day. Well can I just say that you should never make your plans based on the weather report. The weather said it was going to be cloudy and basically crappy out on Sunday and Monday so we changed our plans. We hung out Sunday morning at home and after lunch headed down to Mystic to stay the night. We went on a nature walk, went back to the Hotel, went swimming, out to dinner, got ice cream and brought it back to the hotel where we ate it in bed while watching a movie. You wouldnt think that sounds like alot but for some reason I didnt even make it through the movie, I was passing out half way through (mind you it was like 8pm).
We woke up Monday morning, went out to breakfast and then to the aquarium. We were there right when it opened at 9am. We got to see whales, seals, fish, sharks, sting rays, feed the sting rays and birds, all with no crowds. We were done by 12 (when everyone started to pile in) and on our way home. Now when I said don't make plans based on the weather I mean it. We thought it was going to be awful weather based on the report. Well Monday there wasn't a cloud in the sky and we were 20 min from Misquamicut. We were done with he Aquarium by 12 and sooooo could have gone to the beach. But since it was supposed to be crappy out I didn't bring anything with us. We weren't prepared. We just ended up going home. Which was fine because we were all so tired from the party, they lolly gagging around Mystic and the aquarium. I have pictures from this trip that I will upload soon.
Tuesday we went up to Southington and had lunch the Great Grandma and Great Pepere (Brian's grandparents). It was really nice. Owen wasn't even in the door 30 seconds and asking for the tractor that he likes to play with there. We had lunch then went to the community pool. It was really hot that day so the water was nice. The pool is 1 foot deep, perfect for kids who cant swim yet. Plus they have a giant mushroom that has a waterfall over the top. Owen had a blast!
Wednesday Brian had to go to work for a training and awards ceremony so Owen, Sarah and I went to the beach. It was hazy out but we still got sun. Owen loves to play in the water. It seems every time we go its low tide, you can basically walk half a mile out and the water is still up to your knees. So he likes to swim when its like that.
Thursday Owen went to the dentist in the morning and then Brian, Owen and I hit the beach again. It was really nice and sunny, perfect day for it!
Friday we hung out at home then head up to Bristol for the evening. Brian went to a Stag and I went to a Bachelorette Party. Owen stayed with his memere (my mom). Fun was had by all ;)!
Saturday we hung out at Dave and Ula's in the morning then met up with friends in the afternoon. Brian and Brandon got a charter out of New London and spent the day fishing. My friend Jen, Owen and I went to a baby shower in Southington. It was more like a picnic, Owen had fun with all the kids there. They were mostly his age so it was nice!
Sunday we lounged ALL DAY!!!! We had such a great week off, super busy but really nice! We needed that day to get readjusted to going back to the real world.
What comes now is Owen starting kindergarten. He starts on the 26th. He has a week and a half left and he is officially in Elementary school. I start working part time on Monday. I will work 9-2. This way I can bring Owen to school in the morning and pick him up and bring him home when he gets out! This is really the only thing that will work for us. Luckily my work was able to give me the hours I need to stay working but be there for Owen when he gets out of school.
I will leave you with a hilarious video of the big kindergartner!!!! Enjoy!
Friday, July 24, 2009
Once he got to school he had to tell everyone he saw it was his birthday. I am sure he did it every chance he got that day. I took a half day from work so I could bring treats to school. Normally when its nice out they play outside when it is nap time for everyone else. My plan was to bring in popsicles for the class and sing Happy Birthday. It ended up raining but Owen still wanted me to bring in pops. So I did. I went there around 2. They all had pops and sang to Owen. He was loving it but really only cared that he got to go home early. So we left.
Once we got home we relaxed a little then made brownies. Owen does not like cake much at all so he requested brownies and chocolate ice cream for his birthday dessert. He also requested grilled cheese and soup for dinner. What the birthday boy wants the birthday boy shall get! After that he got to open his presents. We only got him a a couple gifts because we have this coming week off and are doing some fun stuff that week for his bday. We decided that for his birthday from now on we will get him a few gifts to open and do something fun as a family. Create the memories.
To be honest, the kid gets "gifts" all year round. He gets a toy, plays with it for a day or two then it dies in the toy box. I want to say that I dont believe in toys but that is just silly. I will probably continue to buy him cheap toys that he only play with for a few days.
We are having a small (if you can call it that between our two families) party, immediate family only. It should be fun...Owen is excited. We are having pizza and cake! I am baking two cakes for it. I am sure there will be plenty of pictures. I will post some next week!
So anyways...I think he had a great mid-week birthday.
Friday, July 10, 2009
Owen is the turning five in a few weeks and it is just making me think how fast this time has gone by. I have been married for five years. If these past five years have flown this fast I cant imagine how fast the next five with come. I just wonder whats next in our lives! Sometimes I wish I could see into the future.
I truly believe that if you are a good person that good things will happen to you. You may go through ups and downs but in the end something good will come out of it! At least thats how I try to live.
Monday, July 6, 2009
- My health and the health of my family
- A smart, beautiful, funny, loving, kind, talented husband who is my best friend and the best friend anyone could ask for
- A son who is just like his dad and the best thing that could have happened to me and Brian. He makes us smile everyday.
- Great family and friends that I dont get to talk to as much as I would like to but they are still very important to me
- Food in my cupboards
- Cars that run and get us to and fro
- A hobby that I love and am lucky enough to beable to persue
- My pet snake that requires no attention from me at all (LOL)
- Our beautiful home that is right near the water and the wonderful landlord that we have who lets us live in peace
- The beach being so close
- The trees that cover our house and provide shade so we do not have to run AC's (it gets a little hot at times but its worth not having to use the electricty to run the ACs)
- True Blood on Demand
- Twilight (cant wait for New Moon to come out)
- Amazon.com (you can get any and everything you need in one place)
- ebay (you can sell any and everything you dont want and people really buy it)
That is all for now. I know some of those listed above are sort of silly but I really am grateful for alot in my life and need to take more time to express my gratitude!
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Owens graduation went really well. He was not feeling good that day (some kind of viral infection) but he made it through just fine. The theme of the day was "Puff the Magic Dragon". They sang the theme song from that movie. Then they did a little dance number called "The Cha Cha Slide". He really got into that one!
The next day we went to the zoo and while Owen still was not feeling well he had fun. He was so happy that I got to chaperon.
Now that the school year is done they have started their summer program which is a little bit more laid back. Alot of his friends have moved on to other summer camps before starting kindergarten. He is one of only a few left in the class. The rest of the kids are younger and have moved up from the three year old class. He will be ready for school by the end of the summer.
Friday, May 29, 2009
We got a new pet. A young ball python we call Chief. He is the best pet ever! Sooo low maintenance. I know...most of you will read this and get the heeebie jeebies but we are really happy with him. We didnt plan on getting a snake or any pet for that matter but we were out and Brian fell in love! How can I say no to him when he is glowing!!! I have never been scared of snakes or any kind of reptile. As a matter of fact I remember when I was younger finding shed snake skins by a pond and thinking it was the coolest thing. Holding Chief is really relaxing. You have to be calm and still so he doesnt get scared. Owen is really good with him. He is the perfect addition to our family!
I have not been doing much with photography. I just dont have time. By the time I get out of work and done with our nightly routine it is dark out. The weekends are so jam packed too! I really need to refocus on what I want to do. I do have a couple of people set up to shoot this summer. I will post those pics as they come!
We dont really have summer vacation plans. We hope to go camping in RI a few weekends here and there. We are definitely going to go the last week in July. Brian and I have that week off. It should be fun!!! Owen will love it!
Thats all for now!
Thursday, April 23, 2009
When Twilight came our I didnt think I would want to watch it because it seemed so different from True Blood. And it was. Brian and I watched the movie Twilight a few weeks ago. While the beginning of the movie was slow the middle and end got pretty interesting. The end was definitely a cliff hanger. I found myself wanting to see what happens next. So of course I bought the book.
I figure before I read the second book to find out what happens I better read the first to make sure I didnt miss anything. As you know books are usually always better than the movie. I am so glad I decided to read the first book before moving on to the second. I cant put the thing down! Even though I know what will happen I still am enthralled!!!! Once I start reading I dont want to stop and when I am not reading it, I want to be. Its crazy. I read all the reviews and everyone was talking about how great the books are. I just kind of shrugged it off as another trend.
Well now I know what they were talking about. I started reading Book 1 on Sunday and hope to be done tomorrow. Now if it was up to me I would have not put the thing down and read it all in one day. But the reality of it is that I have a husband and son that need my attention. As much as I would love to spend the day reading my book (ideally on the beach), it just wont happen. So for now I read on my lunch break and a little at night!
I have book 2 on its way. I heard it isnt as good as the first. I kind of read a spoiler about it so I know some of what is going to happen. I am still excited to get to it! I will let you all know how that one was.
I definitely recommend reading the Twilight Series. I promise, you will love it!
True Blood too...if you can, watch Season 1 to get caught up. It will pull you right in!
Saturday, April 4, 2009
On another note...I almost told Owen that Santa is pretend. He was asking me a whole bunch of questions (as usual). Then came the "is this real" questions. He was asking about power rangers, transformers, super man (should I let him think he is real), all the super heros, etc...so I am just playing along...not fully paying attention. I was saying no to everything because if I tell him any of those things are real he will be scared to death!!! Well then comes "Is Santa Clause real?". I started to say no!!!! Thank God I caught myself. I think he would be the only four and a half year old that does not believe. I just thought that was a funny story. Moral of the story...PAY ATTENTION!
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
I sometimes have such a feeling of guilt for working full time and having Owen in school full time. There are not enough hours in the day to get things done. I run around in the morning with my head chopped off trying to get us both ready and out the door. I try to add a cusion for time so I am not rushing him. If any of you have met my son you know that when he needs to move quickly he is a slug...lollygagging around, taking his time. He is just SLOW. Now when I need him to be calm and quiet he is NOT!!! Like any boy he loves to do the opposite of what I want him to.
Lately Brian has been picking him up from school around 3ish everyother day. On my off days I go to the gym after work. On my pick up days I get to school at 5:30. Once we get home Owen is crazy!!! He is just a ball of energy. Brian and I have to make dinner, lunches, do dishes, give O a shower, and be calm for bed. Inbetween these things I usually throw in a load of laundry or something. There is just not enough time in the day for all of the things that need to get done. I am big on Owen getting his sleep too! I feel like he needs to be well rested for the day ahead. He is playing all day!!! He needs his sleep.
So back to the podcasts. The two ladies who do the podcasts are working mothers. The stuff that comes out of their mouths cracks me up. It makes me realize that you dont have to be perfect or have a perfectly clean house. You dont have to devote every waking second to your kid(s). You just have to love them and be there for them! I know that Owen knows we love him and are there for him.
I just thought I would share because sometimes I feel like I am alone in my worries and concerns so I keep them to myself. I am sure plenty of people already think I am crazy, I dont need them thinking I am more crazy than I really am!!!!
Monday, March 23, 2009
Owen started swimming lessons three weeks ago. He is doing so great!!!! The first time he went was a no go. He didnt make it in the locker room. He was scared that he was going to sink to the bottom tf the pool. He didnt know what it was about. My child has a HUGE fear of the unknown. If something is new to him he is terrified of it. We had made such a big deal about it, talking about it for weeks, hyping it up and I think he was just overwhelmed. We did not want to give up on it though. So the next week I brought him a half hour early so he could see what it was about. He was so scared to even go into the pool area. After some talking to and watching he actually got into the water. He is still pretty nervous but he trusts his teacher (she is nice but does not baby them which is good). He trusts us when we tell him nothing will happen to him. I think I have learned not to really tell him what is going on. He obsesses about things and thinks the worst. Brian and I are the same way. Stay tuned for pictures. Now that he is getting comfortable I feel I can sit back and let the teachers teach and just watch. I will take pictures soon.
We have been trying to figure out what to do with Owen for kindergarten. It is usually an easy decsion to make...when your kid is 5 he goes to kindergarten. Well when you live in bridgeport its not that easy. We had planned on moving to Boston, living in a good school district, sending him to public school. Well since we are not moving everything has changed. We are not sure where to send him to school. We have looked into Catholic school and we are considering public school. Either one will be fine I am sure. My only reservation with the public school is the threat of it closing. Its been all over the news and I just dont want him to go to a school and half way through the year it closes. I guess it doesnt matter where we are or what school he goes to...it could happen anywhere in this economy. We shall see what happens. Who knew it would be so damn difficult!!!!
As for Brian and I, we are still adjusting to the idea of not moving. I was looking forward to the move and settling down. Now everything is up in the air. I am very thankful that we both have jobs. Dont get me wrong. I am just anxious that I dont know what is next. I have no idea where we will be next year and I dont like it.
I did a photo shoot this past weekend. Only I was on the other end of the camera. It was weird. I kind of enjoyed it but it was still weird. I am NEVER the one to get my picture taken. My friend needed a model and asked me to do it. I agreed.
It was a perfect situation. She wanted to do a trash the dress/bridal session. With my 5 year anniversary coming up I thought it would be a good idea to get pictures taken of me in my gown. I have known Melissa (the photograher) since middle school but have not seen her (in person) for 10 years. We see eachother everyday virtually (thats how it goes these days). It was so good to see her IN PERSON. She started her photography business a year ago so it was great to get to talk shop with her!
Here are just a few of the images from the shoot. They all came out soooooooo good!