Under my ribs

Well baby boy Boissonneault has comfortably set up shop right under my ribs. I am not sure if its him or my intestines but here I am sitting at my desk and I couldn't be more uncomfortable. I feel like everything is stuffed up under there. Its no fun. I sit up straight as often as I can because that is the only way to be comfortable. I try to walk around the building when I have to go to the bathroom (which is just about every 30-60 min). Walking helps my back too.

I really hope these next 4 weeks fly. Dont get me wrong, my job is ok. Its just not busy enough for me. I am usually sitting at work bored out of my mind thinking of everything else I could be doing. When we are busy I love it. Its just not often enough. I am thankful for the pay check. That helps us out tremendously and I will miss that when I am not working anymore. But I must say, I am just looking forward to being a FT stay-at-home-mom. I will be able to go to Owens school mid-day and read to the class, have lunch with him, go on field trips, etc. I will be able to have a clean/organized home. I can plan lunches, run errands and do everything I need to do on a daily basis with plenty of time to do it.

I need to take my camera out and start shooting again. I go through periods of time where I shoot everything and then times when the poor camera just sits there. This is one of those "camera just sits there" slums. I have not had time to take the pics, never mind all the editing I like to do. I will pick it back up this weekend. I will take good pics at Owens game.

Summer is just around the corner. This makes me so happy. I just love being able to have the windows open, cook out on the grill and just be outside all the time! I will have some time this summer to myself while Owen is at summer camp. I hope to get in plenty of beach reading. I have a few books I would like to tackle this summer. I will consider myself lucky if I finish 4. I plan to fully take advantage of the days when Owen is at camp and baby boy is in the womb. Once he comes out there will not be much time to myself.

Speaking of baby boy...I have my appt next week. I will be 26 weeks. It will be at that appt that I will make my appt for my glucose screening. I will find out if I have diabetes this time around. My fingers are crossed that I dont. I am a much better eater now than I was 6 years ago. For example, my breakfast 6 years ago consisted of a coffee, sweetened tea and a bagel with cream cheese. Now it consists of a bowl of special K. I have small healthy snacks every few hours. I hope this makes a difference. I am guessing at this point I have put on 20 lbs. I was about 15 lbs heavier last time around at this point. So I am holding out hope that I will not have gestational diabetes. We will see. Even if I do, I will adjust. There isnt much I will have to change. I will not be able to indulge in the occasional ice cream cones and sweets. Other than that I will be good eating what I am currently eating. We shall see.

Wishing

So I am surrounded by pregnant women who are due months before me. I just want to say that I am feeling a bit jealous. I want to meet my baby now! I want to hold him, smell him, touch him, hear him, feed him and cuddle with him. I don't want to wait. I am finally starting to feel pregnant. My belly is constantly getting in the way. My back is achy and I am tired. The miracle of the second trimester energy is coming to an end. I really dont mind be pregnant. In fact I am enjoying it. There is nothing better than feeling a limb scrape across the inside of your belly. I love it so much.

I am having tons of anxiety though. I am nervous that we will not be ready when he decides to join our family.

My life will be so different in four months and I dont even realize it. I am carrying on everyday as if it weren't going to change. Instead I wonder if I should be spending as much one on one time with my boy as I can. I am signing him up for summer camp at the beach for five weeks this summer. I wonder if I should keep him home with me to spend extra time. I just dont know what people normally do to prepare for the arrival of a second child. Or how to prepare Owen for the arrival. What should I be telling him? What should I be doing with him? Will he act up more than he already does when his brother gets here? Will I be able to handle all of this? I dont know, I am sure I will, everyone that has two kids added the second one and had to adjust at one time or another. It seems to work out.

Life will calm down a little bit in about 4 1/2 weeks. I will be done with work and that stress will be relieved.

I feel like I have tons of things going on in my head. Here is a list of what is going though my mind.

• I am constantly thinking of ways to redecorate our home.
  
  
• I want to clean and organize all the time. Last night after dinner I decided to go up to the bathroom and scrub the tub. For no reason. I just thought it needed it. Isnt it too early to nest??
  
  
• I have a dresser upstairs in the attic that we will use for the baby and it is bothering me that its up there. I dont want to have to add another thing to Brian's plate but I really want it to be brought down.
  
  
• I have to re-do the closet in Owens room to make room for that baby stuff.
  
  
• I want to sell my couch and buy a new set.
  
  
• I need area rugs in every room.
  
  
• We need to put the dining room table in the attic. Its a junk collector. We never use it.
  
  
• We need to make a play room out of our living room and make our dining room into our living room. Basically the living room/Dining room will be the living room/play room.
  

So these are the things that are going through my mind. There is really no reason to be worried about any of this at all. I know that I will get it all done, even if it takes me a year to do so.

I will just stop worrying now.

What to say

I guess I have been at a loss for words these past few weeks. Keeping all of my thoughts and emotions inside. Sometimes blogging comes easy and other times its not so easy. I find when you think about what you want to say too much it comes out scripted. That has been me lately, over thinking everything. Not sure why. I think its just easier to blog when you are happy and have tons to talk about. I dont think anyone wants to share with the world that they are tired and cranky. I know I dont. In the past week I have started three different posts. They were cut short due to lack of content or lack of time.

Right now we are so focused on Owen and T Ball. He is loving it. It is really a lot of fun. I have an amazing opportunity to assist the coach on his team. He could not be more proud that I am helping out on his team. This makes me happy to know he isn't embarrassed by his parents yet. I am thinking that one day he will not want anything to do with us so I shall eat it up now. Plus I will not be able to do this next year as I will be tending to an almost one year old while watching Owen play.









We had Owens spring break not last week but the week before. We had a busy week. We stayed home but tried to keep busy. We had a few play dates with kids in the neighborhood. In between that, errands and relaxing we stayed busy. I really enjoyed being home and felt much less pressure to get everything done. I was able to get ahead on laundry, kept the house tidy and relaxed all at the same time. Even though I work part time it gets crazy trying to keep up with everything.

I think people think that just because you stay home you have all the time in the world and thats just not the case. I feel like I am doing both working and staying home now with working part time. I run around in the morning before work and school trying to get things together for the afternoon. I bring Owen to school then jet off to work. Am there for five hours, run home, throw laundry in, pick up Owen from school. I am usually trying to prevent a melt down with in the first hour of us getting home. If he has a good day I usually take him to the play ground to let him run off some after school energy but its becoming a problem. He expects it everyday and when he cant have his way he gets mad. I need to cool it with the playground for a while.

Then when we are home its time to do homework, figure out whats for dinner, keep up with laundry and try to keep Owen entertained.

Its much easier to keep up with these things when staying home. Its still a full time job but I will have more time to do it. I cant wait until I am free from working for someone else and focus on where I need to be.

I finally registered for the baby yesterday. I forgot how much a baby needs. I still dont think I got it all. I took Owen with me and he was the scanner. He did a fine job. He even went above and beyond in the scanning dept. He got everything we needed and more such as a pink "kid on a leash" back pack. That got deleted when we got home. One, we dont need any pink and two I dont need to put my kid on a leash.

My belly is getting bigger and bigger. Its starting to catch up with me. I am feeling like I am pregnant more and more. He kicks around constantly. I love that more than anything. Its like the first time everytime.





We just cant wait to meet our little guy.

The coloring of the Easter Eggs

Today is a great Saturday. The weather is beautiful! We got lots done and spent tons of QT together.

Owen woke up bright and early (6am). He said he wanted to go down stairs and watch tv. I saw nothing wrong with that so we sent him downstairs like a big boy. He knows how to turn it on all by himself and he knows how to get to the right channel. He got hungry and wanted breakfast so he got himself a poptart and a very LARGE glass of OJ. He was very self sufficient this morning. I am so proud of him. We got to sleep in until 7:30! Thats late in this house and I must say, it was very nice.

Brian and I woke up, ate breakfast, sipped some coffee, showered and started cleaning! I swept, dusted, and picked up clutter all over the place. Its not spick and span but its clean and no dust anywhere! So all in all, its clean. It took a few hours. My back is sure feeling it tonight.

I had to go to Target and do some Easter Bunny shopping. That was fun. Owen is at such a fun age now. There is so much we can do with him.

Brian and I realized this morning that we had not colored easter eggs yet. So while I was out I picked up some supplies and when I came home Owen and I went to town while Brian cooked dinner.

So I told Owen that if he leaves his basket out with the eggs we colored the Easter Bunny will fill it with all kinds of goodies.

Owen is so excited for the Easter bunny to come. We put out carrots and the eggs along with a note that he wrote all by himself. I cant wait for him to wake up in the morning and see what the easter bunny has left for him.

We have beautiful daffodils growing in front of the house. I love this time of year!!!