I guess I have been at a loss for words these past few weeks. Keeping all of my thoughts and emotions inside. Sometimes blogging comes easy and other times its not so easy. I find when you think about what you want to say too much it comes out scripted. That has been me lately, over thinking everything. Not sure why. I think its just easier to blog when you are happy and have tons to talk about. I dont think anyone wants to share with the world that they are tired and cranky. I know I dont. In the past week I have started three different posts. They were cut short due to lack of content or lack of time.
Right now we are so focused on Owen and T Ball. He is loving it. It is really a lot of fun. I have an amazing opportunity to assist the coach on his team. He could not be more proud that I am helping out on his team. This makes me happy to know he isn't embarrassed by his parents yet. I am thinking that one day he will not want anything to do with us so I shall eat it up now. Plus I will not be able to do this next year as I will be tending to an almost one year old while watching Owen play.
We had Owens spring break not last week but the week before. We had a busy week. We stayed home but tried to keep busy. We had a few play dates with kids in the neighborhood. In between that, errands and relaxing we stayed busy. I really enjoyed being home and felt much less pressure to get everything done. I was able to get ahead on laundry, kept the house tidy and relaxed all at the same time. Even though I work part time it gets crazy trying to keep up with everything.
I think people think that just because you stay home you have all the time in the world and thats just not the case. I feel like I am doing both working and staying home now with working part time. I run around in the morning before work and school trying to get things together for the afternoon. I bring Owen to school then jet off to work. Am there for five hours, run home, throw laundry in, pick up Owen from school. I am usually trying to prevent a melt down with in the first hour of us getting home. If he has a good day I usually take him to the play ground to let him run off some after school energy but its becoming a problem. He expects it everyday and when he cant have his way he gets mad. I need to cool it with the playground for a while.
Then when we are home its time to do homework, figure out whats for dinner, keep up with laundry and try to keep Owen entertained.
Its much easier to keep up with these things when staying home. Its still a full time job but I will have more time to do it. I cant wait until I am free from working for someone else and focus on where I need to be.
I finally registered for the baby yesterday. I forgot how much a baby needs. I still dont think I got it all. I took Owen with me and he was the scanner. He did a fine job. He even went above and beyond in the scanning dept. He got everything we needed and more such as a pink "kid on a leash" back pack. That got deleted when we got home. One, we dont need any pink and two I dont need to put my kid on a leash.
My belly is getting bigger and bigger. Its starting to catch up with me. I am feeling like I am pregnant more and more. He kicks around constantly. I love that more than anything. Its like the first time everytime.
We just cant wait to meet our little guy.