Changes are coming

What can I say, this has been a year of ups and downs. A lot more downs than ups for us. In this economy, being a single income family is very hard. Are we doing it, yes. Has it been easy, no, not at all. Do we have any extras, no.

I have been home with the kids since May of 2010. I am so happy I have been able to do that but is it worth the financial burden it places on our family. Unfortunately for us, no, its not.

I know they say money cant buy happiness but when you have it all and money is lacking it does buy you happiness.

I am so torn between going back to work and toughing it out and staying home. I love being a stay at home mom. I love being here for my kids no matter what. I love that they can count on me always being here, helping with homework, taking them on play dates, teaching them everything they need to know about life.

We are looking to settle here in Black Rock, buy a house, save for college, weddings, retirement, etc. With one income that does not happen. It could but it would take forever. With two incomes all of that is possible.

Do I want to juggle kids, work, house, life, photography, laundry, etc? Not really. But it is what is best.

Where is all of this coming from?

Well I have been job hunting and found a really great job for what I think is really good pay. It could be the start of a career for me. I have not been offered the job but have a second interview next week.

I am having such mixed emotions about it. I am so excited but so anxious. My big boy needs me at the end of the day to help him wind down, help him through homework and just be his mommy. My baby boy needs me to just be here...he is a mamas boy!

Millions of families in America and all over the world have two working parents. I have done this before just did not have two kids. I started working part time when Owen went into kindergarten.

The answer for us will to find really good child care. Hopefully someone to come to our house. That search will begin sooner rather than later.

Wish me luck. I know I can do this!!!!