Emotional MESS!!!!

Here we are, three days away from my due date and still no baby. All my hopes that he would be early are getting slimmer and slimmer. He is quite comfortable in there which in turn has made me uncomfortable. I have little feet in my ribs, a head in my pelvis and am just really sore all over. My hands and feet are a mess, I havent slept in weeks and to top it all off I am crying all the time. I never cry. I loved being pregnant up until now! He needs to come so we can all see him and hold him!!

No Fair!!!

At this point I just want to cry. Every morning I wake up thinking this could be the day, every night I go to bed thinking this could be the night. I get up to pee 12 times a night and each time Brian wakes up thinking its time. We are so excited and anxious.

I wake up every morning sort of sad wondering "is this ever going to happen?"

I am trying so hard to stay active and get things done. I know I am close, six days away.

I am starting to get nervous and scared. I had a few really strong contractions the other day and they hurt. Well then I started thinking that there is no turning back now. This boy is coming no matter what, and its going to hurt when he does.

Then there is the fact that I will have two children in a few days. I cant believe it. I know I have had plenty of time to prep myself for this but wow, two kids just like that. I have only had one for so long.

I said to someone the other day while watching Owen play so carefree "I wonder if he realized his whole world is going to change in a few days?". I dont think he has any idea. I dont think we have any idea.

I am so excited to welcome our baby boy into our family but so nervous to meet that little guy too. He changes everything. I know it will be the best change ever and I cant wait but change is hard. Especially when you know its coming.

I wonder how Owen will be with his brother? How he will be with us? Will he act out?

We shall see. Maybe today (wishful thinking)!!!!

Trickery

We thought last night was going to be the night. I was having stong (stronger than normal) contractions and they were every few minutes. Then they would break for 20 min and start again. So we ate dinner, cleaned up and showered in preparation to leave at some point for the hospital. Well after my shower I sat in bed with my phone ready to time them. THEY STOPPED!!!! So it wasnt the time. 11 more days!!!

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Owens birthday party turned out great, smaller than planned but still great. It was very, very hot and muggy but out back yard is fully shaded and there was a decent breeze. So as long as we sat still outside we were fine. Thanks to everyone that came and braved the heat.

Owen had his first pinata. It wasnt really that great. After the first wack by Owen the loop it was hanging from broke so rockstar dad decided to hold the pinata while the kids hit it. It backfired real quick. He got wacked by each Boissonneault kid.



All is well that ends well. They got two pounds of candy and had a blast doing it.



My mom picked up the cake. It was so neat looking. It was the perfect cake for the day!
Thanks Mom!



Everyone sang to Owen and he got a little embarrased. Then he blew out the candles, spit and all. Thankfully we are all family!!!





My smarty pants boy decided it would be funny to smash his face into the cake. I was a little irritated with that but then after seeing this face how could I stay mad and in all honesty, it was funny!



He had a great party and got tons of great stuff.



Thanks again to everyone who came!! I know it was hot!!!\

Offended?

I am not sure how to act in these situations as I have never been a mother before. Lately Owen has decided that when he doesnt get what he wants he can tell me that I am the meanest mom ever. Do I punish him for that or ignore it. I dont want him thinking he can talk to adults that way. He feels like he can say what ever he wants to me. That is just not happening.

For instance, this morning, he was putting his shoes on and all of a sudden decided that he wanted a different toy than one that he had picked out last week at the grocery store. When we were there he had the hardest time picking out what he wanted. He finally made is choice and I double checked with him to make sure. He was positive he wanted the two headed dragon instead of the octopus. Well today he has changed his mind. Had a little melt down, asked me to go get him the one he wants and I said no. So now I am the meanest mom ever and he is never sitting next to me again. With my hormones being the way they are I am somewhat offended. Usually it rolls off my shoulders. Today I am annoyed that he thinks he can talk that way to me. I feel like I do for this kid all the time and he doesnt ever remember. I know he doesnt mean what he says but I dont want to do things for him when he talks like that. So I sent him to his room and told him to come out when he could be nice.

Then he came out asking for gum. I said no, you dont speak to me like that and then get rewarded with gum. Which leads us to the next melt down and another and another. We have had a morning of melt downs. I feel like I am about to melt down. All of this because he decided he has changed his mind and wants a different toy.

Good-bye to Social Networking

I am going through a "done-with-social-networking-phase". I feel like I am too out there for the world to see. Not that the world is looking but I need to back off a bit. I am not saying I am done for good. I am really stepping away bit by bit.

Starting with Twitter. In my mind its useless information. Why is it that I need to know what others think and feel every second of the day and why do I think they want to know what I think and feel every second of the day. I think Twitter is good for some companies to keep track of their employees and its a great marketing tool. I may be back when and if I start working for myself.

Next will be facebook. I will not get rid of my FB acct. I will minimize it as best I can. Starting with the pictures. I have way too many pictures up. I love how easy it is to stay connected and see what is going on in your loved ones lives but at this point my whole life is on fb. Time to take some albums down.

I am going to centralize my online life to this blog. Pictures will be posted as they are taken along with blurbs about what is happening in our life. I will then post a link to the post on fb so those who want to see can and those that dont can simply keep scrolling.

I am not sure what has brought this on but I do know it has been a long time coming. It could be because I am a hormonal mess or it could be that I just cant keep up with everything. I have so much going on in my real life that I cant and dont want to focus on the on-line life.

Blogging has been a great form of expression for me. I dont know who sees it and it really doesnt matter. I just like that I can get my thoughts out and go back and read them. Its the perfect way for my friends and family to keep up with us and see what is going on.

So for now I will take my time and clean up Facebook and have deleted my twitter acct. I may be back some day but for now I am done.

In case you were wondering this is my 100th Post!!! How exciting!



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So no baby yet. I am getting very impatient. I just want my guy to be here. I am so uncomfortable, achey, sore, and just plain old impatient. I went to the doctor today and I am still only one centimeter. I am having what I think to be contractions but they are not very regular. Today I am especially sore and crampy. They are much stronger than normal. My hips are in so much pain. They keep spasming and going out. Its not very comfortable.

We are ready and waiting!






I am not really sure that any more baby is going to fit in here. At this point I think my stomach has stretched out as much as it possibly can!





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Owens Birthday party is this weekend. It is supposed to be 96 and humid. WOAH Hotness! I will be a sweaty mess. Oh well. Its worth it to celebrate my boys sixth year of life!!!

Pics to come!

My baby is growing up!

At 6:03 on July 21, 2004 we welcomed our beautiful first born son. He has been the love of our life ever since. I can not believe it has been six years. And here I am getting ready to do it all over again.

I love birthdays so much. I feel like its the one day a year to celebrate your life (well everyday is a celebration) but I get to make a big deal about it.
So I picked up some streamers and balloons and went to town on the stairs.


Owen woke up to it and though he was groggy and a little cranky I know he loved it.






It didnt take too long before he took down a balloon and wanted to play with it.


He had the choice to stay home today or go to camp. What do you think he chose, camp of course. Especially because they went to the movies today. I told him I would bake some cupcakes and bring them after lunch. So I spent the morning baking and frosting and then brought them to camp for he and his friends.

One of his friends has the same bday as him so the cupcakes were in celebration of both of them.


This weekend is Owens birthday party. We are excited to celebrate with family and friends. I am not so excited about the 90 degree humid weather we are going to be having that day but I guess I will survive. My hands and feet may explode but its all in good fun!